threshold

life hangs in the balance

I think about death a lot, but have been contemplating it even more this week, as my kitty, Syntha, lies in a hospital cage with a deadly virus-parasite combo. Siezed by the #2

destroyer of worlds

For most of my life, I identified as a rebel and considered myself a lover of freedom. A freedom almost always defined by what I was running from, rejecting, or pushing against. I

between optimism and cynicism

Rose-colored glasses force a happy ending. Greyscale glasses expect the worst. Both disconnect you from reality. What I found instead gave me more power over my life, not less, but it required letting go of the one thing I thought gave me control.

death became my savior

When I was 31 years old, death became my savior. I had reached a crux of my adult life, which featured me, in the same red wine and tear-stained light blue yoga pants