Shapeshifter Day 4

Oct 16, 2019

There’s not much I love more than spending a morning at a little Balinese Cafe drinking flat whites, traversing my inner landscape, and creating worlds from the inside-out.

I know deep in my heart and soul, that this thing I call “my life” is quite simply a dream I’m having. All that appears to manifest in my dreamscape is an illusory effect of the Cause, which is me.

When I remember this, I feel supremely liberated and my dream turns to pure, heavenly, unadulterated magic.

When I forget this, I can conjure forth literal hellish nightmares for myself.

And yes,
I do still forget.

But remembering is my passion.

Calling upon lucidity in the dream is what I’m in full service of and what I’ve devoted my life’s work to.

I’ve slowly but surely over the years been weeding out anything that distracts me from this focus.

Just recently, as I crossed the 41st year of my life as Chandra Nicole, I consciously drew a line in the sand and stepped...


Shapeshifter Day 3

Oct 14, 2019

Today I’ve been thinking about how what’s showing up in my life is an exact reflection of what I expect and am available for energetically.

Another way to say this is - what I get is in direct proportion to my standards, based on who I think I am.

There is only one way I’ve found to raise standards, and that is radical self-love.

This love far exceeds self care routines and the surface tangibles of #livingyourbestlife (although defo do that too)

The full-on self-love I'm talking about includes shamelessly assuming responsibility for the totality of your reality, having compassion and respect for all the characters you've played both angelic and devilish, and telling the truth about your deepest desires, including the most taboo of them all.

You cannot force raised standards.

Raised standards are a by-product of radical self-love.

This is the journey I've been on, the past few years especially.

I've been calling upon and shamelessly loving all the parts...


Shapeshifter Day 2

Oct 13, 2019

I made a new commitment to myself yesterday on my birthday, and it is this:

Tell the motherfucking truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth (to myself first and then to others.)

It’s not that I intentionally lie,
It’s just that to tell the truth about what I want and how I feel in certain instances would potentially mean that I might have to face some of my deepest fears and limitations.

And so, sometimes I bend the truth to myself a bit (and then cut off my awareness to the fact that I’m doing so, sneaky human style)

This almost always involves rationalizing, justifying, oscillating, and settling.

If you find yourself doing any of these things, you can be certain that you’re lying to yourself about something.

When you’re dishonest you fall out of integrity, you cripple yourself energetically, and you minimize your superpowers of shapeshifting, timebending, and parallel reality hopping.

You stick yourself in the past and you tie your hands...


Shapeshifter Day 1

Oct 12, 2019

Today was my 41st birthday.

Every day is a perfect day to reflect, evaluate, and craft new beginnings, however I find birthdays to be extra symbolic, and an extremely potent energy in which to intentionally birth new realities.

And so, I spent a good portion of this day in refection and celebration of this year gone by, giving a lot of consideration to the ways in which this past year has served me and what is no longer serving me, noticing what worked well and what did not work so well, identifying what I am and am not willing to tolerate anymore, acknowledging what I've grown out of and what I'm now ready to grow into.

This is the groundwork for what I like to call "Shapeshifting"

In my opinion, intentional Shapeshifting is THE most practical devotion that I can prioritize.

This is because I understand that my outer world can only ever mirror back to me who I deeply believe I AM.

Nothing more, nothing less.

If I desire for a different life experience, then I must become the...


Spirituality Rehab

Aug 19, 2019

I feel like what I’ve been doing a lot of lately is rehabbing “new age spiritual” people... 

Here’s the thing: 
There’s nothing fucking wrong with you.

You don’t need to heal yourself, because you’re not sick.
And you don’t need to fix yourself, because you’re not broken.

You don’t need to be a “better” person. 

You don’t need to do more yoga, or buy more crystals, or consult with more oracle decks.

You don’t need to read five billion personal development books, go to a gajillion retreats, and watch 5,693 seminars.

Now don’t get it twisted, you can definitely do all these things if they’re fun & expansive for you... but you don’t have to do it in order to fix something that’s wrong with you.

The truth is that all of your perceived brokenness and fuckedupness is a god damned illusion.

It’s not real. 
It exists only in your head.

And by trying to...


Evolving Through the Fulfillment of Desire

Aug 12, 2019

A perfect Sunday spent on the beach here in Montecito, CA...

clear blue skies, warm sun, slight breeze, gorgeous views, dolphins, great friends, lux resorts.

I remember a time, not all too long ago when I yearned for the life I live now.

Sometimes I wonder what I’d be like, as a person, if I’d never said yes to my desires and left everything familiar to gypsy around the world.

Back then when I felt land-locked and job-locked and simply NOT free… 
I thought it was a liberated lifestyle I really wanted.

I did get that lifestyle and am grateful for it every single day.

I’m grateful that I get out of bed exactly when I want to every morning.
I’m grateful that I spend my days doing whatever the fuck I want.
I’m grateful that I make money doing what I love, from anywhere in the world.
I’m grateful that I have unlimited time to spend with people I adore.

But even more than all that... 
I’m grateful for WHO I’ve become 


Making Bold Choices That Stick

Aug 02, 2019

Unless you consciously & Powerfully choose something new for yourself, your default setting is to recreate the past on repeat.

The way that most of us make choices is in favor of that default setting. Based on memories of the past which you’re dragging into the present moment.

…. and even if you should happen to have a flash of insight and make a bold choice in alignment with a different future scenario, often what soon follows in a retraction on that decision.

This happens because you get a glimpse of your future self, 
you have the wherewithal to make a different choice from that glimpse into the future…

All the fears, doubts, beliefs, and limiting perspectives that created your current reality creep in and override your choice.

This is imagery from a reality that no longer exists, outside of your redundant reimagining of it.

This way of imagining is so not helpful for creating what you really want to experience in your life and...


Making Bold Choices with Total Confidence

Jul 31, 2019

This was one of my last moments in Honolulu, right before I got on a plane to California...

I've been thinking a lot in the past 48 hours since leaving Hawaii, about the most important faculties that must be activated and utilized, in order to shapeshift and step powerfully into entirely new realities.

One of the things I've been thinking about is how the ability to make Bold Choices with confidence, is PARAMOUNT to creating the life you really want to live.

In order to make Bold Choices, you must be clear on what you value most and you must craft ironclad standards surrounding those values.

You must then squeeze out the energetic essence of those two things, and embody that essence.

From there, it's then super easy to move through the moments of your day with the ability to intuitively say YES to what matches that essence and NO to what does not.

This is the end of the wishy-washy oscillation that occurs when you try to make decisions with your head, as well as the indecision...


The Illogical Burning Belly of Soul Desire

Jul 27, 2019
24 more hours here in this condo by the sea, with my love.
I'm having such a good and easy time with him that I almost forget why we're going our separate ways...

Why is it that I seem to hold the most appreciation for people, things, and scenarios in my life on their way in, and on their way out? (not the point here, but curious side phenomena to ponder)

When I feel deep down within to my burning belly of desire, I remember how "Fuck Yes" this choice is, to diverge onto solo adventures, for now... as illogical as it seems. 

When I look back, I see more and more clearly how I sacrificed myself for his love in ways from the very beginning that were so small and so subtle, they were almost invisible to the human eye.
Over time, these invisible denials of self added up to equal a debilitating disempowerment and suffocation of my soul - manifesting in a host of unsavory ways through all arenas of my life.

This was...

A Life On Loan

Jul 26, 2019

Two more days left at Tropic Seas... I've been here so long (by gypsy standards) that this place feels like mine.

It's so strange to be turning it all in. 
It's as if I checked out this life from the library, 
and the return date has come due.

I realize though, that this is all we're ever doing.

Just checking life stories out from this Earth Library...
and the reality is that it all comes due for return, eventually.

the body - it's not yours. 
the house - it's not yours. 
the money - it's not yours. 
the car - it’s not yours.

the lover, the friends, the business - not yours. not yours. not yours.

.... to convince yourself that you are the owner of these things, is to pull the wool over your own eyes.

It's all just a mirage. A dream. 

... with rapidity.

To cling when the winds of change blow and the return date is near,
is to suffer at the hands of illusion.

The real truth is this: 
there are no limits to the...

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